Winterball

Is starting out to be horrible..
what have I ever done wrong for anyone?
She told me,
She told me,
She told me,
three times..
The 2nd was the worst,
Accepted, Rejected, Thrown Down..
the 3rd said i can't get over this situation,yet i feel any situation as she always says that..
They all hurt me, but i'm not gonna be a girl about it..
All would rather go either with someone else and by themselves.
rather than with me..

1st try:i asked, she said she was gonna be busy, so i let it go

2nd try: i asked, she sounded sarcastic, but usual as always

3rd try: she straight up said what she thought(read above)

4th try:Mini "Debate" on why she couldn't go..

ALL 3 Reasons:"I would rather go with the other guy or by myself"

Horrible, i Spilt my feelings to one of them
She pushed it aside
Acted like i didn't care.
Same Situation for ALL girls..
i felt as if i was competing for them..
Horrible..
One of them made me feel Numb,Emotionless..
All is ok..


-aj